gaurdianangel5

I haven't written on deviantart in so long. I was going through my old writing and realized I was a completely different person 0.0 part of me wanted to delete my old stuff and start new, but then I thought that was who I once was and my old thoughts and feelings so I should keep it.
Quick update on my life...well I graduated college in May. Got a sociology degree and minored in psychology. Now looking for a big girl job. My best friend has been in a coma for almost a year now, me and his family have been trying to get an investigation done on his case. That's going no where unfortunately...but I still visit him all the time and miss the shit out of him every single day. I met a guy who changed my life, but that's over now. It's for the better. I currently take care of two little boys who I love so much. Made new friends and dropped the bad ones. Despite my busy schedule I def make time to party. Gone to several shows and raves this past year. I went to Mountain Jam and camped there for 4 days in June and met some amazing souls there. I've been fasting for Ramadan the past month...the last day of Ramadan is tomorrow and then Eid Friday Looking for more shows to go to this summer, some trips to the beach, and vacay with the family.
That's pretty much my life in a nutshell right now. Don't know who even looks at my page but if anyone does well there you go.

Saw Rebelution and a couple other bands last night. The show was great and so was the crowd. Awesome time. Couldn't ask for a better ending to the summer.

Today is the first day of Ramadan. It is the most holiest time in my religion and lasts 30 days. Afterwards we have Eid which is like our Christmas. It's tough but it's a good test of your will power and a lesson to be grateful for what you have.

I am just so fed up with rude people.
That is all I've dealt with this week. People that are rude. For no reason.
I don't know why people can't control themselves.
I DON'T CARE how bad of a day you are having. We ALL have bad days. But that doesn't mean you can go around projecting your feelings onto other people and feel justified in doing that.
Anyone who knows me well knows that I'm pretty much always nice to everyone. I treat people with respect and I have too much of a conscience to be mean to anyone (unless there was a serious reason for me being mean/hurtful). And yet, people will still be rude/disrespectful to me. God forbid I ask someone what's bothering them I get snapped at. Or get an attitude from people I'm not even talking to. Or my favorite this week having drunken idiots come into the store (first of all why are you drunk at the mall) and be obnoxious when I'm just doing my job trying to help them find some clothes.
And another thing..I hate when I put so much effort to stay in touch with someone or make plans and nothing happens because they never come through. I'm tired of always being the person making the effort.
I've been told maybe I'm too nice. Maybe I should stop being nice to everyone and having a positive view of humanity because clearly people are either blind to the fact that their actions/words are rude, disrespectful, and/or mean OR they just don't care.
I'm not saying I'm perfect. I've had my fuck ups. I've done and said stupid shit. BUT I've matured and I seen where I was wrong and I made steps in my life to change the things I saw as flaws in my personality. And all I'm saying is that I feel like some people don't take steps to change some of the negative things about themselves. They say/do things in the heat of the moment with complete disregard to other people's feelings.
Anyway, that is all I have for tonight.
Goodnight.

Feelings so intense
and
real.